Almost two years ago, I made a decision that seems short-sighted now. I closed down the online literary journal I had started with my ex-husband, The First Day. It was a decision I had to make during the dregs of divorce, when I had to figure out what to let go of and what to hold on to. I couldn’t keep up the website, and fellow editors who wanted to keep it ran into trouble because it was still listed under my ex-husband’s and my name. So I decided it had to go completely. Just like a year before, I closed down my personal blog that showcased my journey through motherhood and suburban family life, a blog I had updated and found joy in for six years.
It pains me to think of it now–all those written stories that have been lost. But each time, I did what I felt at the time I needed to do. It’s hard to move on in your new life when your feet are still half-way in the door of the old. Besides, I told myself, one day I’d start again. One day I’d find a new creative outlet. I’d get it all back.
I think that day has come.
Welcome to my new site, Janallewellyn.net. It’s my little home on the internet, with links to past articles I’ve published, contact info, and a new, updated blog that captures what it’s like, among other things, to be a divorced single mom, spiritual seeker, and communications professional.
I’ve always believed that creativity is a flame that never dies. Instead of a line with an end point, it’s a circle that regenerates. It’s a superhero characteristic that keeps getting up each time it falls, resolving to try again with an open heart. That’s what it feels like to be me these days. So much comes down to putting one foot in front of the other, accepting and embracing what life has to offer with each new breath.
I hope you enjoy as I share the journey.
Image taken at Bell Rock, Sedona, Arizona