Jana Llewellyn

A little bit of Janatude


How Do I Be Me?

For most of my life, I’ve gone into various situations and felt troubled that I was different from everybody else. For instance, let’s take this story of the shoes. In seventh grade, my aunt gave me a pair of hand-me-down, rust-colored pink shoes with leaf-engravings on the side and holes that showed my foot-skin. (I don’t think I’m explaining these very well.) They had skinny pink laces and smooth wooden […]

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Positive and Calm

I received one of the best compliments I’ve ever gotten yesterday. It was from my 9-year-old daughter, who said this week in school, they’re studying Women’s History Month. When the teacher asked kids to raise their hands and share a woman they thought should be included, my daughter raised her hand and said she wanted to include me, her mom, because “she’s been through a lot but she stayed positive […]

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Starting Again

Almost two years ago, I made a decision that seems short-sighted now. I closed down the online literary journal I had started with my ex-husband, The First Day. It was a decision I had to make during the dregs of divorce, when I had to figure out what to let go of and what to hold on to. I couldn’t keep up the website, and fellow editors who wanted to […]

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